Please Don’t Call
My love,
Please don’t call tonight. As much as I want to hear your voice and tell you that I love you, I can’t bear to talk to you. The holidays have been tough without you, the things that usually bring joy have just been a painful reminder that you are gone.
Call tomorrow when I have a better handle on my emotions, because right now, I can’t put on a happy face, and I don’t want you to know how much my heart aches without you by my side.
I can talk to you when I can complain about a hard day, but then laugh about it and tell you I miss you, but tonight I just can’t talk without tears in my eyes and a quiver in my voice.
So, please don’t call tonight. I’m afraid of making you sad and causing you hurt with my sadness, because you can’t come home right now. Tomorrow will be better because you will be one day closer to coming home.
Tomorrow I will be stronger.
this post brings tears to my eyes. I can remember this feeling from before and am dreading it again next year when my soldier is overseas.
hang in there. We all know what it feels like.
Bigg Huggs Sarah – luv ya girl!!
That is a perfect Comment, Thanks for sharing I was wondering how to say to him that I need a night to sulk… Without being rude and saying I didn't want to talk.
Thanks again Monica
we have all had that day….after 5 months of him being gone….i still have those days once in a while.
I love you. Hang in there!!! Nothing stops time. Tomorrow IS a new day.
Well said.
Brought sadness to my heart but at the same time, I think a lot of us women can feel you. I know I for one never had the self-lessness to admit it though. Or nearly not as well as you have.
Keep your chin up.
Lots of women are on your side
🙂
Oh and Thank You for saying what most of us women have been trying to figure out how to say.
This post made me cry too. My husband is currently deployed with still 6 months left to go. The holidays were rough, but his mom and dad came and visited me during them, and that made it bearable.
I have those days when I am just too sad to talk to him, but I can't bring myself to tell him not to call. Because what if he can't call tomorrow, or the day after or….ever.
We agreed not to shield each other from the bad things, because sometimes worrying about me takes his mind off his own issues out there, and vice versa. If your husband has computer access, try using Yahoo or MSN to talk. That way you still get your time together, and you can cry without him ever seeing it.
Hang in there 🙂