Be Your Best
A few weeks ago, my friend suggested that I take the Enneagram Test. I was all for it, since I love taking personality tests, like Strength Finder 2.0, Myers-Briggs, The 5 Love Languages, etc.
After fifteen minutes of taking the test, I had my results. I am 95% a number 1, which means being a perfectionist or the “good girl.” Honestly, I did not like my results, especially since the reason I am the way I am is mostly based on my childhood and trying to be the good girl.
My friend tried to explain to me that this is the reason why I am doing the things I am. For example, being a people pleaser (I am slowly learning to stand up for what is right and that it is OK not to please everyone).
Another aspect that I learned about myself after this test is that I have high standards and expectations for myself and others. For example, I finally took my exam, and I passed it. Yeah. But was I happy that I passed it? Not at first, since I passed it with the minimum score to pass. I was disappointed at myself that I did not pass with a higher score. It took my husband and my son to point out that “passing is passing.” It is hard to let go of this high standard.
Currently, I am listening to Priscila Shirer about being your best in the season and moment you are in right now—not waiting until circumstances are perfect but to take the first step towards your dreams and the direction you want to go.
I am learning that I do not need to be perfect in everything I am doing. I am learning to look at the season that I am currently in and focusing on the tasks that are before me, like raising my
children during this pandemic, being the wife my husband deserves and needs, as well as being the financial counselor that my clients need. Focusing on the now helps me not worry about tomorrow. I am also learning to be OK with small beginnings and to give myself permission to be a beginner. By doing that, I can lean back and say, “I don’t know the answer, but I will find out.”
It helps to bring it into perspective that I do not need to know everything.
It helps to know that I can be my best today, in the roles that I was given, without putting high expectations on myself.
I think the older I get the more I learn to love myself for who I am and not needing to “be perfect.” I hope this encourages you to find your best in the season you are in right now.
Find contentment in who you are and the difference you are making in the lives you are touching today.
Find the path that is uniquely you, and walk in it without comparing yourself to others and their path that they are on right now.
